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My Greatest Fear-

Sitting here, alone again, with scissors or a safety pin
I get another craving for that sweet adreneline
I long to see my flesh torn,
and blood turned black on a metal blade
No flash of regret or sorrow
I know I can't be saved
Later, now, I lie here
Wiping these pathetic tears
And pray they won't find out
Cuz that's my Greatest Fear

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I don't want to lie awake
Thinking of what could never be
It's a waste of time
To live in my mind
Wishing things could be different
Hoping for a change
You've chosen your own path
It strays from my own
trodden, beaten, the one I'm expected to follow
You branch out and are
Eager to be yourself
Help me to follow in your footsteps
Even though I can't have it my way
I need you
To lead me astray.

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it grips you in its inpenetrable hold
The bruises and blood
Flow like the water
Washing the sand below
Can't get a foot hold
No hand to grasp
Every bit of energy used
To keep yourself afloat
The fear of the sea
Cascading into your lungs
The want of joining your
family on the florr
Half fighting and half letting go
What is there left to live for?
Family and friends under the waves
Possessions and lives washed away
Slipping under, your mind loses air
the revenge of the Earth brought you here.

A Letter to Someone-

Hey, long time without a word.
I can't remember the last time we actually spoke
When was the last time we met?
At a party last summer,
We only glanced at eachother
And the air still froze between us.
How did we drift apart?
Someone said something that caused some tears
I think I broke your heart
But I'm not sure.
I seem to have burried the memory
In the same place I burried the hurt
I felt everytime
You ignored my voice.
Did you ever tell my secret/
Because I told yours
One night, drunk in a flurry
I'm sorry.
My mind was like yours,
Forgetful and full
You understand what it's like
To rip out someone's soul
Without thinking
To distroy their spirit in a single breath.
You said you would never
So that to me
In a love letter
You lied.

But I'll miss you forever.

Believe What I Say-

Listen to the wind
Gaze into the sea
They don't care like I do
But they still won't turn away
Be snowflakes
Different by design.
Come clean and let yourself free
It will be restored in time
if you choose to wander
take me with you, and we'll learn
The things that make you think
And let your passion burn.
believe what I say
When i tell you its okay
We're all meant to be different
So please, just stay the same

We run away-

I'll only let you run away
if you let me run aswell
We'll leave it all behind
And no one we will tell
Together we'll avoid the world
We'll find a place to hide
And if trouble somehow finds us
We'll go out with the tide
We don't know where we'll end up
but we can't keep living this life
This pointless, empty existance
Hidden all by lies
When we leave together
Without letters on the shelf
Atleast we'll know the freedom
Of being just ourselves.

Nothing Left-

the night is cold
The ice is dark
My heart is black
My soul is scarred
There's nothing left
Not even the emptiness

When I was stranded here
Everything left
My hopes and dreams
My world
My everything.

When everything was gone
Nothing was left
So nothing and I tried to survive
But its hard to live on mindless conversation
So nothing left too.

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posted by Aisling  # 1:46 p.m.